Drawing in the lessons and experience needed to do so

I count myself lucky that my religious indoctrination only started when I was seven years old.  Before that, I did not know anything about God or “The Trinity”.  Coming from a long line of Gypsies and dark magic on one side of my family, I only understood that there was a ‘devil’, and that he was a pretty big part in our lives (as a family).

My shocking introduction to Christianity

When my parents were both plucked from my life one month before my seventh birthday, I was placed in foster care with a Christian family.   While there, I learned for the first time about God.  Up until that point, I was the property of the dark ones, and as such was very well protected from the light.  When I started living with the Christian family, the angels had access to me for the first time, without interference from the dark – which previously guarded me against the light. 

That then, was also the time when my (supernatural) education in light began.  By experiencing the light, and by being protected and shielded from the darkness which surrounded me before, I had the opportunity to learn in relative safety, important lessons in Christianity which on many occasion through the course of my life, were the guiding light that kept me alive.

My very first time in church / Sunday school was an experience I can still vividly recall.  It was with shock and disbelief that I learned about the Son of God and what people did to him. It shook me, and because I was a sensitive child, I had nightmares about the torture and crucifixion of Jesus for a long time afterwards. 

That day, when I first learned the story of Jesus, I remember looking around at the other children in my class to see whether they too were shocked that such a thing was possible, but unfortunately none of them seemed affected by what we had just then learned in class.  I suspected that the ‘normal’ children heard that story before, and as such it was old news to them.  I speculated that they had time to assimilate the story of Jesus which was riddled with torture, hatred and murder, which was by no means a natural occurrence, in any situation I could think of. 

Since then, I’ve always known that there is a God, and during my life I’ve had many wonderful experiences with Jesus, God and the angels.  I decided however at a young age, that I did not want to be a part of Christianity. The level of apathy I perceived, and also myself received from Christians through-out my life was the one thing I was unable to understand. 

I learned that the concept of Christianity, and other man-made religions, is a safe place to be to those who practice it, in the sense that there is no figuring out what the rules are.  Everything is laid out by the person preaching from behind the pulpit.  As long as you support the guy in the front of church, give lots of money, and are seen doing so – you are believed to be a good person.  And as we know, good people go to heaven.  The general consensus seems to be that whatever one chooses to do on non-church days has nothing to do with anyone else. But on Sundays, one should be seen.

Wearing a cross around one’s neck suggests an affinity to Christianity. However, it is by realizing that we are sinful and then choosing to accept Jesus as Lord and Savior that one awakens to a new reality; a reality where man-made rules and regulations around religion and religious control, in all of its forms, is no longer part of such a person’s journey.

As children of God, we must strive to cultivate the qualities of love and compassion without judgment and condemnation if we want to be in service of our Creator.  Without that, as the good book states, we are hollow instruments.  This is, in itself a personal journey, and mostly not an easy one.

Compassion through trauma

My personal journey of learning about love and compassion was a very hard one.  Throughout my life I had to learn to forgive, and I had to learn to say goodbye when my lessons were finally learned.  Like most people starting on a spiritual journey back to love consciousness, the experiences I chose for myself to learn about love were difficult to master. Ultimately, the journey of getting there is what brought the lesson and wisdom, on my path of mastering my lessons in love.

God will sometimes allow ‘despicable’ people into your life or allow unpleasant experiences – always for a reason.  In reality, nobody is ever truly ‘despicable’, but we can choose to see them in such a light. While we are still learning and growing, we might feel anger or other negative emotions – or perhaps at times feel like a victim of sorts. Once again, we must remember that we choose the lessons and experiences we want to have in each lifetime – for the soul to grow.

People also many times don’t know or understand that they are hurting others. We are all so busy creating our own lives, and building our own dreams, that we are hardly conscious and alert of when, or how, we hurt other people, or how our words and actions affect others.

The most judgmental people, and the ones who hurt us most, are often times (mostly) themselves unhealed in many ways and should therefore not be cursed but treated with compassion.  We should make a point of healing those wounds within ourselves which they caused, and then forgive those actions we perceived to be against us.  In so doing we lighten not only our own loads, but also those of the ones who hurt us.  In  that light, let us not carry grudges against others who might not even be conscious that they harmed us.

As we grow on our journey back to a love centered existence, we begin to more clearly understand, when people get involved in lower vibrational activities like gossiping (and listening to gossip), manipulation, power struggles and so on, it originates from a place of insecurity and fear.

The way of the universe is such that what we give or partake in, we receive back at some point. In other words, every time we sit in conversation with others and listen to malicious gossip – which originated from a place of fear and being temporarily out of sync with our personal power – we become not only someone who partakes, but also someone who will receive into our lives the payment for such actions. Try not to get involved with people who manipulate and gossip, because today they slander someone you know and tomorrow it is your turn under their tongue.

Introspection

At this point the reader is perhaps thinking back to their own life as a child or to some other point in their personal history – or even current affairs. Every person on earth has a history, and as long as we understand that we no longer need to feel ashamed of who we are or where we come from.

Through having this journey of life, we learn about consequences, we learn about the presence – but also the absence – of love and how to become better versions of ourselves. Each soul must answer their own questions of immortality, origins and lessons/karma for themselves, as each soul has a different journey. We each learn about the return to love consciousness at a different rate and we choose to do so in different ways. Therefore, nobody has the right to judge another or the path such a person chooses to be on.

Compassion – Not Pity

Feeling sorry for- or having pity for – others is a lower vibrational emotion, and happens when we recognize an unhealed wound of the self, in someone else. Such wounds will be reflected to us for observation until we heal them; feeling sorry for someone else who has a similar wound is not helping anyone.

Compassion or empathy is something anyone can cultivate, after healing themselves, and living a heart-based existence. The barriers we build around us so we won’t experience pain are the barriers that keep us head-centered and not heart-centered. For that reason, feeling sorrow, pain or pity for another person stems from a place of unhealed trauma and not understanding the power that each of us holds in choosing our experiences. Such a wound in another is then recognized, but not understood.

Back to Love Consciousness

When we ask ourselves why we are here on earth, the short answer is always that we are here to learn about love and compassion – that means mostly through trauma – and then forgiveness.  Those then, are the experiences we will draw into our lives to teach us about love, compassion and forgiveness.

The longer and more convoluted answer is that we are on a journey of remembrance.  We must learn the concepts of love, empathy and forgiveness on our journey of being in experience.  Emotions like sorrow, hatred or other issues caused by unforgiveness will weigh us down and we will be too heavy to ascend towards the higher levels of understanding.

Ultimately, we are here to have experiences. As souls, we can only have experiences in 3D when we have physicality, and so we each choose to incarnate in a physical body. Through having this avatar to house our souls while we are here on earth, we choose our experiences, of which some will have to be what we perceive as ‘negative’,  so we can develop and grow through those experiences we choose.

Whenever I meet someone I know does not resonate with me, I silently thank their soul for choosing me to have that particular experience of fear, judgement, rejection or indifference with. Through those negatively perceived experiences we can choose to grow or stay in negativity.

Everyone can choose how to react to an unpleasant interaction, and that in turn brings growth or more strife, judgment, fear, rejection or other negative experiences.